Dilemma

I think me and Aizat are having a big problem right now. Haha well it is about Aneeq again! Walla..

His babysitter is asking to take a full week off after raya to go back to her hometown, if I'm not mistaken in Terengganu kot. Jujurnya, my annual leave tinggal 8 hari sahaja lagi ( tak tolak cuti raya lagi tu weh!) which I've spent half of my annual leave before because of Aneeq jugak last time masa dia kena chicken pox, demam, babysitter mintak cutilah and etc etc. Haih.

Imagine that how could I survive with 8 days left until end of Dec? Dengan nak raya lagi...raya haji lagi..and not included untuk any random things that might happened in the next coming months lagi..adoi I am really in trouble seriously. wakakaa

I was thinking to let Aneeq with my mom in Alor Setar for that period while me and Aizat will back to KL and working as usual. It might sounds easy..since my mom is actually waiting for this moment for quite some time already. Haha. She loves Aneeq to the max I would say! Tapi tapi..it is just me..I can't stand a day without seeing Aneeq so tak mungkin aku mampu bertahan without seeing Aneeq for that at least 3 days..I will go crazy man! :(

One more thing about his milk la of course. Berapa bekas aku nak bawak to support him while I'm not there? I mean, tak boleh nak agak jugak sebab when he sleeps especially waktu malam, he refused to get feed with the bottle. He wants his mama jugak..aku tak sure how Aneeq will be nanti sebab kami tak pernah berpisah even for a day! Sobs sobs

Serabut la..

Rasa macam nak resign sekarang jugak. Haha

Separation Anxiety - Aneeq

It's Julyyyyy everyone! Time flies so fast and Ramadhan is just less than a week. I can't wait for this fasting month since this is the first year I'll be celebrating it with my husband and my little man. Last year I was still in Penang while husband in KL and at that time my little man still in my tummmy and was approaching 6 months kot. That's why I am so excited ok! :)

As I mentioned in my previous posts about Aneeq's first solid food, by now I think Aneeq is getting better in adapting his food kot. I mean, he's doing great! Alhamdulillah, he likes to eat now even though there are times when I have to be like a hulk since Aneeq intentionally refused whatever things that I've prepared. But then he will come back to me dengan muka lapar meminta bantuan kecemasan hoping that I will feed him with my milk. Akai macam-macam!

Well, he is now 7 months plus and yeah..he's getting smarter and like a new little observer in the house. He likes to observe whatever things in the house with the ability of rolling, and style of crawling. Gaya tu ada, tapi belum melangkah merangkak lagi. He can sit without support but we have to put him in sitting position first since he don't know how to sit on his own yet but I think that is huge development for him. Alhamdulillah. :)

He is now got 2 batang gigi bawah and we are expecting 2 more dekat bahagian atas. Rasa gums dia dah keras and maybe in the next 3 weeks boleh complete 2 batang gigi atas bawah kot. Hehe cuteness overload la macam tu..how fast he grows up! Pheww rasa macam tak boleh keep up but Mama still doing it right. Hahaha

At the age of 7 months ni, Aneeq is showing signs of separation anxiety. Separation anxiety is a normal emotional stage of developement that starts when babies begin to understand that things and people exist even when they are not present. It means like, whenever I leave the room, Aneeq will know that I'm gone- and is able to picture and start to miss me like I'm leaving him for forever. Nangis macam kena cubit. Even he is already sleep in the night, safe and sound..he will wake up periodically not just for the milk but also to make sure that I was there and I believe that this is caused by the anxiety stage- the two seem to be connected. Get what I mean? See for yourself when your baby is having this. -__-

But still, Aneeq is a gift from God and I am soooo proud to be his mummy. And I hope that he will be proud too having me and my husband as his parents. And his dad..loves him more than he loves himself. Aneeq is the most priority, and his everything. With the arms wide open, he will always be there with me and Aneeq..be at the front line, protecting us and work hard to feed us well. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah..terima kasih Allah.

Harap masih terus layak diberi amanat memegang amanah ini. Amin.

Mother's love & Random (ver.3)

"A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path." - Agatha Christie

I still remember a quote saying that a woman does not know her capacity to love until she has a child and that is how I feel with my Aneeq. Seeing him growing up with my own eyes, all the hard things- sleepless night, heart-break when he's got cold/fever and etc; for me, it makes the love even stronger. How strong I was to face that difficulties and the hardship, I will always feel proud of myself and of course that’s the awesome thing about a mother’s love, there’s always room for more :')

Aizat was reading my blog last night and he said, "Amboi, sekarang semua post blog cerita pasal Aneeq eh..", with a smile on his face-like macam perli pun ada. Wehee. I don't know what to reply. I just give him a big smile on my face and said nothing..sorry love. :)

Hmmmmppp, but then, to be honest..yang sebenarnya aku sanggaaaattt addicted with Aneeq. Seriously. Apa dia buat, berguling, bergolek, berpusing, menonggek semua mesti nak tengok. My eyes caught on him. Melekat macam ada gam. Sometimes I will feel like I'm not doing a good job in raising my kid. There are easy days when your kids seem like the angel that they deep down really are. But there are bad days - that make you question your judgment, your method, your beliefs - that makes you question yourself: Am I doing the right thing? I know I’m not the only one. Kan?

Adapting myself into motherhood life is not something easy. It's hard but I think all of the mommies are actually love it kot. Mana nak masak lagi, kemas rumah lagi, dengan Aneeq's need on my ketiak lah, calling 'maammaa-mammmaa' lagi la..there are a lotsssss of things to do at the same time! Alhamdulillah so far everything went well even tho diuji sangat hebat dengan Aneeq got his chicken pox at the age of 6months! Luckily husband was there, holding my hands and fully support me when I was down. Thanks abg! See, I'm writing about you in this post, not just about Aneeq. Hehe. Love you soooo much! :)

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I actually so damn excited waiting for my coming soon niece(kot?nephew pun okay.hee)expected inshaAllah this coming July. Aaaa best dapat bau bayi sebab it comes from heaven. Bau syurga kan..hee..Aneeq dah bau masam dah sebab dah grown up fast! Bila bercakap dengan Aneeq especially bila aku membebel, I feel like I'm talking to a big boy sebab he will stare at me like he actually faham la kot. Haha. Comel sangat!

Haa remember about my last post about our vacation that supposed to be any date in June, actually we ended up went back to Alor Star. Hahaha. Actually, awal-awal tu..Aizat was thinking of going to Gold Coast Morib, but then bila dia nak booked the room, surprisingly all rooms are fully booked for June! Cameron is boring, Aizat la cakap. So ding dong here and there ingatkan our vacation will just be nothing, but then last 2 weeks la on Friday, Aizat came back from work and he went to bed early malam tu because he was too tired. And me on the other hand,was playing with Aneeq je la kan..suddenly it was 11pm, Aizat woke up and then he said, "Jom balik Alor Staq'..I was like, seriously? Bila?

"Sekarang."

I was so happy and melompat-lompat dengan Aneeq. Hahaha. Quickly I ran to my room and just took whatever stuffs that important including Aneeq's stuff and we went back to Alor Star at 1am. My mom was really shocked. Haha..our sweet escape. :) Ok la kot..dari membazir pegi travel ke sana sini but we ended went back to my kampung jenguk orang tua. Hehe. Thanks hubby..:)

Ok la, will update in the next post. See ya! :)

Home made solid food

Alhamdulillah, Aneeq now can slowly accept my home-made-food even though yea, sometimes it depends on his mood jugak. So to be safe, setiap hari aku akan prepare semi-solid food which is blended nasi with kentang plus bayam. So far he's doing fine.. Aku tak letak expectation tinggi pun kat Aneeq, rileks sudah. Tak habis semangkuk pun takpa sayang..6-7 spoons per each meal pun dah great for mama. Slowly learn..

Tapi, kadang-kadang mood awang ni tak dapat dijangka jugak. Ada hari yang Aneeq totally refused my home made food. Taktau paseipa. Aku buat macam selalu yang aku buat jugak..tapi bear in mind, jangan paksa anak makan. I did some research jugak la through internet, kalau force baby to eat whatever things that had been prepared, at one time dia akan trauma pulak nak makan. Nak makan pun takut, ngeri kot macam tu. So that's why I took a step back..loosen up sikit dengan preparation introducing Aneeq dengan makanan even aku sumpah sangat excited nak menyuap dia makan since dia 5 bulan lagi. Hmmmph! 0__-

Jadi, untuk cuba mengenyangkan Aneeq even after dia reject bubur aku buat, aku cuba cari what other things yang Aneeq suka. I've tried a lot seriously. Tapi tak da la sampai aku give up, it is just that sampai tahap aku try introduce Aneeq dengan nestum. Wehehee. What? Mati akal kot! lol, I am not a kind of mother yang sanggup biar anak lapar just to follow all the rules, like 'say no to nestum' ka whatever. Anak aku reject bubuq aku buat kot.

But surprisingly, semua jenis nestum di pasaran also being rejected by Aneeq. Lagi mati akai! Sekarang ni kalau Aneeq makan nestum pun tanpa dia sedar. Hahaha. Aku campuq sikit dalam susu dia. Tebuk sikit lubang puting..minum ok jaaaaaa..saja akai Aneeq tu..heh!

Luckily Aneeq sangat suka dengan biskut Farley. I bet it is because of the taste kot. Biskut tu kan manis..aku hat besaq ni makan pun sedap jugak rasa. Hehe. So macam aku cakap tadi, to be safe..instead of preparing Aneeq with the bubur, aku dah stand by siap-siap biskut farley dan nestum kat rumah babysitter. Kalau dia not in the mood of eating the bubur, aku minta pengasuh dia cairkan biskut tu or campurkan nestum dalam susu Aneeq. Either or la..at least he wont just depends on the milk only, ada topup sikit here and there. Bubur pun nak yang panas-suam gitu haaa..so aku beli termos untuk keep the food warm. Demand tak anak aku? Baru 6 bulan dah pandai demand. Keh3

But then it's still okay for me. Aku rasa enjoy je layan kerenah Aneeq. Dia belum dapat adapt lagi kot dengan semi-solid food. Dia dok ingat susu aku paling sedap dalam dunia kot. Hahahaa.





My love, my everything. Sampai mati. :)

His very first semi-solid food

I never thought that to start Aneeq with his first semi-solid food could be this hard. For now his semi-solid food is only bubur nasi + kentang. No puree until to date. He refused to eat, dengan buat muka nak muntah segala bagai, dengan muka buat-buat nangis macam kena cubit, he did everything just to make me give up. Haih

But still, luckily Aneeq still nak jugak la makan bubur nasi + kentang tu..kalau plain bubur lagi laaaaa..bukan setakat buat-buat muntah, memang dia muntah sungguh! Yes, no added sugar/salt or etc. Memangla tawar, but he is only 6m kot..what do you expect my dear Aneeq? Nak makan KFC Spicy Korean? Memang tak la! Huh

At one point aku rasa so demotivated. Rasa macam, hai la anak..nak mama buat macam mana lagi ni? Yes..baru 5 days kan.. That's why I have to make my so-called-innocent face everytime aku suap Aneeq makan lepas 5,6 sudu tu dia ketap bibir tak mau bagi sudu masuk dalam mulut. Tension betul dengan budak kenit ni.

Hari ni berazam nak start menu baru dekat Aneeq. I bought him broccoli and sweet potato. Kita try buat puree pulak ye sayang. 4-days rule dah passed! Bubur nasi + kentang dah on. Let's try on something else.

First menu : Bubur nasi + kentang = passed
Second menu : Sweet potato + brocolli = ?

Will be updated soonnnnnn.

*hopefully*

Wish me luck!

Random things ver.2

Aneeq is half a year old now, which means I've been breastfeeding him for 6 months already. Mission accomplished! Alhamdulillah. But yea, will still continue doing the 'bf-ing' work since I enjoy doing it so muchhhh. Hehe. Let's check on Aneeq's progress. 1. He’s got an impressive set of skills. Well by now, he can imitate sounds, 2. blow bubbles and 3. roll both from front to back and back to front. How fast time flies! Seeeeeeee :)

Not to forget, Aneeq nak tumbuh gigiiiii! Patutla dia asyik menggigit je sekarang ni. Phew, so many things happened lately and I don't know which one to start. But it is all about Aneeq and I'm glad that I didn't miss any moment of his development.

Worst thing happened was last month, my car got stolen. Dang! I just don't want to make it too detail in here, because I don't want to think about that anymore. Let's move on, yeh!

Nightmare happened last week when Aneeq got infected with chicken pox! Menangis aku. But my strong boy, Aneeq tak menangis, meragam jauh sekali. Redha je bila pakai calamine lotion and makan ubat demam. Alhamdulillah scar almost none. :). Me and Aizat both applied EL for a week. Takda sapa nak jaga Aneeq..tok-tok semua dok jauh. Berkorban demi anak tak apa..setahun kena cuti pun aku tak kisah. Hehe.

So now Aneeq dah almost fully recover. Ada sikit-sikit lagi dekat lutut. Scar dekat muka takda, tangan clear, badan superb..Syukurla, dugaan Allah. And hopefully Aneeq akan dipelihara dari virus-virus jahat ni lepas ni. Kena chicken pox ni pun sebab berjangkit dengan budak dekat rumah babysitter dia. Tu la risiko yang parents macam aku ni kena tanggung..huhu

Ok, sedikit busy since I left work for a week..so work mode is on!

Oh yea, we are expecting to have a vacation by early next month. Hubby pass semua bab-bab detailing on vacation ni dekat aku so yeah, nanti nak tengok tempat mana yang menarik. Definitely dalam Malaysia je la. I don't want to take the risk of taking Aneeq outside the country with so many diseases lately. In fact dia pun baru je sembuh dari chicken pox. Huhu.

Cameron maybe?

:)

My precious

There are a million important things to do. But none as important as lying here next to you.


Mama loves you, baby.

Ahmad Aneeq bin Ahmad Aizat, 4 months 1 week 2 days old. :)